July 2011
3 posts
date a girl that makes you write
you’ll find her unexpectedly, right underneath your nose the whole time. when you feel like you have the world figured out, she’ll help you redefine the boundaries of human understanding, compassion, emotion.
date a girl that makes you write simply because she gives words new meaning. let her imprint her essence onto words that one had dull meaning:...
Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the...
As I roam back home on the Dublin-Pleasanton BART train, a lingering thought that I’ve been trying to process continues to peck at my brain, leaving it loud and restless. I’ve always been an observer of nature and people. Systemically, I find correlation and causation in the endless combination of the two, and it gives me a bit of comfort in continue to strive to understand the...
June 2011
1 post
a rainy night with an umbrella covering two unsheltered hearts.
May 2011
0 posts
My final spring semester has come and gone, leaving only summer school and one last fall semester. I don’t know how I really feel about it all, but with all the current statuses involving graduation and graduation pics.. I feel like even though I cherish the time that I have, I want to move on. When I walk across campus and stare up at the Campanile, there’s a tinge of regret of...
April 2011
2 posts
March 2011
6 posts
3
mm i wake up in the morning to a nice and warm feeling of love. despite all of the world’s little worries flying through my brain at a thousand miles a second, it all seems to slow down at the very thought of you.
THIS STUPID BED THOUGH!!
bluecherriesfordrea:
BED, I LOVE YOU. I REALLY JUST WANT TO BE WITH YOU.. ALL THE FREAKING TIME! BUT I GOT THINGS TO DO. UGH.
#SOTIRED
old soul
I think that personally I’ve always been somewhat hesitant to fully endorse the web2.0 — the evolution of our media and the way we consume and view things. I really do think that tumblr is a successful extension of our generation; we love to consume and share things at a feverish pace and if you follow enough people, there isn’t a second where if you refreshed, you would get the...
tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?
untitled
some days it’s pretty hard to get things on paper. other days it’s insanely difficult. writing comes and goes in spurts, but sometimes you get so wrapped up in other things, you have to squeeze it out to get it started.
the last few weeks have been a blur. honestly i feel myself falling off the wagon of getting shit done, but i think for some reason if i blog maybe it’ll get me...
I REMEMBER THIS AND I LOVED THIS SONG AND I LOVED...
February 2011
5 posts
8.
5: 16:17 AM) IMMAPIRATESAVVY: TTFN
xcarb0n2k2x: oh baby
xcarb0n2k2x: dont leave me this wayyyyyyyy
xcarb0n2k2x: i look around me, and i see it isnt so
xcarb0n2k2x: well whats wrong with that
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: ..WHAT
xcarb0n2k2x: id like to know
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: I WAS
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: LISTENING TO THAT
xcarb0n2k2x: cuz here i go
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: -___-
xcarb0n2k2x: yeaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAa
xcarb0n2k2x: love lifts us up where we belong
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: LOVE LIFTS US UP WHERE WE BELONGGG
xcarb0n2k2x: where eagles fly on a mountain highhh
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: love makes us act liek we are foolsss
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: throw our lives away for one happy day!
xcarb0n2k2x: we can be heroesssssssssss
xcarb0n2k2x: just for one day
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: you
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: you will be mean
xcarb0n2k2x: no haha i wont
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: and i
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: i'll drink all the time!
xcarb0n2k2x: we should be loverssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssSSSSS
xcarb0n2k2x: we should be LOVAAAAAAAAASsssssssssss and thats a fact
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: though nothinggg will keep su togetherrrr (is this right..)
xcarb0n2k2x: we could steal time just for one dayyyyyy
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: we can be heroooooeeesss
xcarb0n2k2x: we could be heroesss forever and everaaaaaa
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: forever and evaaa
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: we can be herooooesss
xcarb0n2k2x: we can be heroes
xcarb0n2k2x: ahhhhhhh
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: foreva and evaaaa
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: :) :) :)
xcarb0n2k2x: just because Iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii willlll alwaaysssss lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeee youuuu
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: can't help looooviiiiiiiiin
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: how wonderful life is
xcarb0n2k2x: now youree inthe worlddddddddDDDDD
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: now you're iiiin the wooooooooooorld
xcarb0n2k2x:
xcarb0n2k2x: ok babe goodnight
IMMAPIRATESAVVY: :) good nightttt
10. or 9.
I got a really hard long look at a relationship in peril today. After being completely taken away to my own world being in love, the sight and sounds of a girl on the verge of a breakdown brought me back to reality if just for that period of time. From my peripheral I could see the tears roll down her cheeks uncontrollably, could hear the quiver in her voice as she tried to express what was on her...
January 2011
5 posts
continued
We went to hang out together alone, and spent the night driving around Irvine just talking as much as we possibly could. There were moments of silence, but it all fit perfectly. Dissecting our lives and telling stories, all while burning 1/2 a tank of gas. As the sun began to rise, we found ourselves arriving in perfect fashion for what could be considered the greatest sunrise in the history of...
birthday and other musings
I’ve never been one to assess growth to any arbitrary numbers, so turning 22 yesterday wasn’t anything particularly special. Despite that, reflecting on the amount of growth that I’ve managed in the past year made me realize that you really do tend to grow up without noticing it. Last year I dipped into 21 in typical style, tons of drinks and almost throwing up in class the next...
drowning →
Clickthrough for song :)
brush Pull me under The world is at my feet It’s no wonder
Your eyes speak to me they Tell me be calm they Tell me be strong
Swimming out so deep Now I can’t breathe And it’s exactly where I belong
Cause it feels like a ride of a lifetime And nothing’s gonna save us now Let the waves come crashing down
Cause it feels like I’m right for the first time And everytime I take...
fate and other silly things
First week of school is over. For once I managed to attend all my classes, and it felt awfully good. I think the workload this semester is perfect. Not having 4-hour labs on top of lecture and discussion really lets me get the right handle on things.
Life/fate is a quite funny and fickle mistress, and although I can find countless examples of how she seems to make my life interesting, I had to...
dawn of light
It’s been a long while since I’ve last made a post on this. I find myself alone with a contemplative mind at 3 in the morning while others lay asleep. Late night has always been good to me in terms of blogging, I can’t really find any other time where the ink flows to the paper.
A lot has happened in the past 2-3 weeks, and needless to say I don’t think I have the capacity...
November 2010
2 posts
August 2010
2 posts
I’ve been having dreams. Angry, violent dreams. No particular reasoning, just wanted to note this for the future
Make someone laugh today. Or at least try. You can tell a lot about a person from their smile.
July 2010
14 posts
memories
I went back home yesterday and actually slept in my bed for the first time in a few months. Looking at the place… it’s a mess. Nothing is organized, there’s tons of stuff on a desk I never used… books just thrown together to form some semblance of organization. But there is no direction in my room at all. I never took the time to really decorate or put anything together,...
So tumblr is a piece of shit and saves nothing as a draft. I’m glad that I didn’t write too much.
Anyway, so it’s been a few days since I’ve touched this thing. Midterm madness had set in, and there were 5-6 hour study days between class and attempting to sleep. For the first time in my life, I could say that the day literally consisted of eating, sleeping, and studying....
INTJ/P
So over the past few years, I took one actual Myer-Briggs personality test, and have checked in from time to time to see how things have changed.
One definite thing that has changed in the past two years is I am more often INTP than INTJ. If anyone reading this is interested you should definitely go check out the test, because most people that have taken say that the way that they’re...
Mraz love
it seems simple enough to play oon the...
headaches
I went to go see Despicable Me with Michelle after weeks of promising her that I would go. After opting to go to the 2D showing instead of the 3D (3D manages to give both of us really bad headaches), we entered what seemed like a basement with give or take 40 movie seats… and had to feel our way around the theatre because it was so dark. After finding a seat we were deluged with tons of...
dinner
I think for the first time, I studied on a Friday morning. :««<
Each time I’ve been studying lately, I make a bit of progress… but at a godawful pace. Is this what most people do? Or most people here in Berkeley at least? There is some fun to it in a rather masochistic kind of way, and the idea of learning something that is truly difficult… is fun. Why is it that...
catharsis
I’m going to try to make a habit of writing often. I know I always say this and I always end up quitting maybe a few days in or at most a week, but I feel like through this effort I can keep some consistency in my habits.
Today was a relatively uneventful day. Post dream/blog, I ended up just being unable to sleep, so I went at studying instead until I could finally fall asleep again for a...
speaking of dreams
I’ve decided to delete everything and start anew. Not for any particular reason, just I think that enough time has passed, and hopefully things have settled down and people have moved on for the better. I definitely hope that everyone has found some kind of meaning from the past few years of… craziness, and that they can grow out of it to be better human beings.
Either way, it’s...
August 2009
3 posts
1 tag
8-21
i think i am a victim of my own emotions songs and pictures both evoke some pretty selfish and ugly feelings. can’t have my cake and eat it too huh? anyway, i guess i’ll start by talking about liking(loving)/caring. there’s a distinct difference between the two, both of which intertwine to leave me a mess. over the years ive grown to care about mk. it doesn’t really matter...
1 tag
8-19
I will attempt to write in this without any bias… which is extremely hard given the fact that I’ve lived my whole life somewhat editing what comes out of my mouth based on who’s around. People would say that it’s a sociological means to get along with others, but I do it so intensely well that I tend to forget that sometimes its just not about pushing an agenda, and I...
1 tag
8-19
Mm.. I’m not sure if this post will adhere to the 2 blog - 4 blog / week rule I placed. That last blog just felt so dirty, but it was slightly cathartic as I just feel infinitely more mellow now. I spent the day immersed in korea… and bowling. There was full house ep 10-12, followed by a friend’s house for taegukgi, bowling, back to finish tgki, then back for more full house. ...
December 2008
1 post
1 tag
12-10
12/10 I’m a really fickle person. As I drove to BART this morning the fog was still settled in such a manner that I could barely see ten feet in front of me. From the moment I got in the car until I got to school I wanted to blog. This is more of a forced entry, based on my feelings from over 10 hours ago. This morning as a I went into my first final I felt a dull sensation in the back of my...
September 2008
2 posts
1 tag
9-22-08
things i should be doing: reading a 350 page book studying for midterms! things i have been doing: napping I’m forcing myself to write right now. I’ve always viewed blogging as a sporadic kind of thing, it just happens when you’re feeling in a particular mood, or when something eventful happens. With that attitude, I think I find myself managing to blog every few weeks. I began...
1 tag
adsfasefsd
Once again I’m on the BART and rather than get some reading done I figure it would be more worthwhile to blog. The past week has been a blur. In terms of class load ever since I dropped Japanese it’s been amazingly relaxing. I haven’t had the pressure of consistently studying 2-3 hours for a class I was going to pass/not pass anyway. Sometimes there are just choices that you make that are based...
August 2008
2 posts
1 tag
8-29-08
I’m writing this on BART! Yeah, it’s the first Friday of the school year. In all honesty I should probably be doing some kind of reading, or maybe some review (all in 3 days?) but my brain is completely paralyzed. I thought this year would suck. As much as I could paint some kind of pretty picture on it, how I’m saving money, how it’s better for everyone around me, to be honest I was pretty upset...
1 tag
8-26-08
So I got a new phone. I didn’t really want a new phone, but essentially I had to because my mom decided to put me a few thousand dollars in debt and refused to pay for the phone, which I had been paying for for the past 6 months. So I signed a two year contract and added onto a family plan for 10$ a month. Two years. School starts tomorrow. It’s kind of a strange feeling. Going back to...
July 2008
1 post
1 tag
7/6/08
6:20 am. I’m actually sure that this is the best time to blog, I have two things going for you: you’re too tired to focus on anything else, and falling asleep before finishing something is damn near impossible for me. The silence is actually quite deafening. Noone’s up, and the birds went to go do something else after chirping for an hour. So summer? It’s been a week since...
June 2008
2 posts
1 tag
I deleted the last blog completely. It was one of those depressed random emotional slews where you just throw up your feelings onto a piece of paper, fold it in half, admire the symmetry and call it art, when it’s really just vomit. The only reason I know this is reading half of my blogs from the past, it reminded me that’s what I used to do on a bi-weekly basis. I’m not denying...