My final spring semester has come and gone, leaving only summer school and one last fall semester. I don’t know how I really feel about it all, but with all the current statuses involving graduation and graduation pics.. I feel like even though I cherish the time that I have, I want to move on. When I walk across campus and stare up at the Campanile, there’s a tinge of regret of distant memories, things I didn’t take advantage of, times I opted to go home and sleep rather than go and experience things. But in a sense, I think that the time alone was liberating, even if it was somewhat disheartening in the past. More than anything, to get undergradute off my back and move on to future plans is something I truly want to look forward to. Lots of people are happy about job x, future y, plan z, but I’ve always found those things to be superflous to true ambition. Maybe it was a lazy justification for the hole I found myself in at the end of every semester, but I truly thought that I would just figure it all out, or it would all come in due time. 

Growing up a day at a time, I realize that although it’s a cop out, it’s super true. How could a career define who you are for the rest of your life? As people are graduating, I find people comparing jobs, salaries, and it still feels somewhat shallow. Sometimes though, you gotta blend in and do what you need to do to survive the every day interaction with people, but I don’t ever want to forget that by the end of the day I should look past that, look at the bigger picture and what makes me truly happy in life.

What I do know is that I find happiness in people. There is just something about truly connecting with another human being, even for a split second, that rivals anything else I’ve ever experienced in my lifetime. It’s that simple beauty that I continue to strive for. I’m so fortunate that I’ve found someone in my life that I can continue to have this connection with on a daily basis, and that it’s given me insight for what I want to do after ending this chapter in my life. 

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